Posts Tagged ‘death’

One Hour To Live

Posted: January 11, 2011 in Uncategorized
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So…I was just told that in exactly one hour (after this blog is submitted) I will faint and die. That’s it. Not tragically, painfully, or dramatically, just faint and never wake up.


What am I going to do with this last hour of my life, you ask?

Well that’s what I’m here to tell you, Grasshopper!

First of all, I would take advantage of my blogging time and write about what I really think of some people, but would ruin relationships to tell them. Also,ย I would leave a Facebook message saying the same blahbity blah that I will say to my family in the next step, to all 156 of my only true friends! If you aren’t on Facebook or not a friend of mine on Facebook, consider yourself unfriended.

Secondly, I’d tell my family I love them and what not, and to save their sorrow for souls in doubt, cuz I’ll be in paradise ๐Ÿ™‚ (Which is why I’m not gonna worry or freak, I’m at peace about this. I just want to enjoy my last few…hour)

“Save sorrow for the souls in doubt”

Thirdly, I would drive to a certain girl’s house, (hopefully she’s home…) Kiss her, tell her how I really feel and that I’m sorry I didn’t take a chance when I should have. This would take up probably a good 20 minutes of my hour, but I’ve been dying (Ironic?) to do this.

Now, about 35-40 minutes left.

Now that I’ve taken care of all the friends and family closure business, on to the funnest half hour of my life.

I would drive down I-275 as fast as my little Grand Prix will take me! I’ll go to the airport, (traffic doesn’t slow me down at this point in my life) I’d run to the nearest plane, jump in the cockpit, and take off! There’s no point in being scared, I’m dying either way.

I’m taking this plane to space.

I would fly straight up as fast as possible until I finally leave Earth’s gravitational pull. Now, I wait. All I can do is float away into space for the last 10 minutes of my life and hope I see something awesome, which impossible not to see in space. I’ll enjoy the view until the rest of my hour is up, after which I can see it anytime I want. ๐Ÿ™‚


Well, the first half is true. The second half is what I would want to do. ย The most important thing would be getting things off my chest that have been taking up space there for so long. And I just can’t get over how amazing space is.

What would you do with an hour to live?

Day 5 1/11/10

Posted: November 1, 2010 in Uncategorized
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Day 5: A Time You’ve Thought About Ending Your Life

I’ve thought about it before, yes. Not very seriously, but it crosses the mind during tough times. During my freshman and sophomore years I was pretty depressed. Sorta heartbroken, lonely, getting bad grades, just crappy stuff. I always felt like no one wanted to be friends with me and everyone just used excuse after excuse to avoid me. I fought with my family, school was hard. I just wondered if it would be better to just disappear. I eventually got over it though. Figured out I wasn’t worthless, people didn’t just hate me for no reason.

Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I did though. Just for fun, curiosity. Like, what would people’s reactions be? What would change about how many people’s lives? Who would be at my funeral and what would be said? What if I left a suicide note? Who would find it? I would definitely put something funny in it. Dare you to laugh! Maybe I’d make a video. Some of us were joking last night, that this my junior is really the best year of my life. So might as well end it before senior year and leave a video.

“Hello, if you’re watching this I probably just killed myself. But don’t worry, I’m very happy about this. I’ve evaluated everything my life could become and realized this is the best option!”

“Well, that was my first failed attempt. I’m gonna try again in a few minutes though! ๐Ÿ˜€ Just keep at it, I always say! Persistence!”

But seriously, suicide is never a good decision. There really is a lot to live for, and you never know what you have the potential to make your life become. Not to mention to help other people in this life. We’re here for a reason, and suicide is not it. Death will come, it will, but enjoy your life before it does. Our life is no longer than the line on our hand. A blip on the timeline of the universe. Make the most of it.